| back after a long hiatus |
[16 Dec 2009|09:14pm] |
ob gyn departmental tomorrow
ob gyn shelf on friday
winter break starts friday at 3:30pm
my car is broken (my dad thinks it's the drive-belt by my telephone description)
weh
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| cholesterol |
[22 Sep 2009|07:29am] |
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/dr-mark-hyman/why-cholesterol-may-not-b_b_290687.html
i read this article on cholesterol. it's actually what we were taught in med school too so it's not the first time i've seen it. every time i read anything about cholesterol, i get antsy about my own. i've had high cholesterol since high school, but i've never had a fasting lipid panel. i get cholesterol results back every time i donate blood or get blood drawn and they always tell me it's high but i'm too scared to go get a proper one at the doctor's. I don't know if it would actually make an appreciable difference to be fasting. but here are some things i think about:
I am...
1. really young (24)
2. fairly active (run 3 miles 3 days a week, 8 miles 1 day a week)
3. actually on the verge of being underweight
4. not that great of an eater (unfortunately only like refined sugar products, do not favor whole grains, or fruits)
5. afraid of rhabdomyolysis secondary to statin use
6. afraid of having to take a drug at the rest of my life
7. unconvinced that a statin will help me because i have no family history of stroke or heart attack. my parents are alive and well, my maternal grandfather died of lung cancer secondary to lifelong smoking, and my paternal grandmother died of a ruptured cerebral aneurysm.
so in conclusion, i think im just going to sit here and worry and not go to the doctor, just like the 1058913057831 other times i've considered my cholesterol.
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[15 Jul 2009|10:29pm] |
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you know, sometimes i am on websites like sparkpeople.com and i read of people who are like "i eat 1000-1200 calories per day and i run 4 miles a day and i am still 120 lbs and 5 foot 2. " this makes no sense to me. either they are miscounting their calories or they skip running or something. this goes against thermodynamics.
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[19 Jun 2009|03:18pm] |
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
i am really sad that surgery is over
WEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH don't make me do more medicine WEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
btw also, yay, summer vacation! (for 2 weeks)
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[16 Jun 2009|11:02am] |
it angers me when people suggest that highly educated people should not have children because they don't have time for appropriate childcare due to their career obligations, and that they should spend their time helping the world and not raising children
BUT
at the same time they complain that only dumb people have kids, and the world is getting increasingly stupid.
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[05 Jun 2009|09:00am] |
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here we lay again, on two separate beds, riding phone lines to meet a familiar voice and pictures drawn from memories.
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| wow i was totally mistaken about many things |
[31 May 2009|11:47pm] |
since I last updated many things have happened
1) Dr Brunicardi is great! he's really committed to education. I like him a lot.
2) The shit hit the fan w/ my roommate
3) I'm getting a new roommate in 3 weeks
4) I need to study but lack motivation
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[22 May 2009|06:46pm] |
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dane is coming to visit today yay yay yay yay
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[11 May 2009|12:41pm] |
Wow, I have not posted here for a long time. In the time that has lapsed, I finished my medicine and pathology rotations. Now I'm on surgery! I finished the Pedi Surg part and now I'm doing EC. Today's my first night of EC and I'm on EC nights from now until Friday. (EC=emergency center). I'm nervous because I might get queasy when I see people who have been knifed in the neck. Peter told me to bring scissors so that I could cut people's clothes off. What if they have a really nice shirt? I would be sad to see it go. I remember how much Jennifer liked that black shirt with ruffles that was ruthlessly sliced off after her car accident. It was a pretty nice shirt.
I have 2 tests on Thurs that I'm kind of nervous about, because I'm not sure about my ability to stay up through the tests and stuff....I still have to go to work before and after, you know? I'm jealous of the kids on EC days because they can leave the EC to take our test, and then at 7:00pm they still have to leave. But I have to come home at 7am, sleep for 2h, get up, study a little, take our tests until 4:30, go home, try to nap, and then be back at wor k at 7pm. Not very fair. I hope gen surg is better, but I heard Dr Brunicardi is a slave driver. I wish I had gotten a different attending... or maybe the rumors are worse than how it really is.
Anyway, school is same old same old. I need to step up my studying for the shelf. Dane is coming to visit in 1 week and 4 days. YAY.
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| Some things that I like |
[04 Mar 2009|06:08am] |
My bf was here last weekend, that was great. I made these sweet rolls with honey on top that I have been using for sandwiches. Unfortunately my sandwich-protector tupperware is too squat and they get squished every time. Next weekend I'm going to make them again, except I'm going to make them flatter and larger, cause I've been having to make myself two sandwiches. I am still growing, you know.
I was telling Sam in school yesterday why I decided to make snow pea-turkey-mayonnaise sandwiches. It is because snow peas add texture, like lettuce would, except I don't have to buy the whole lettuce and watch 98% of it go bad. Also, I love mayonnaise like fat boys love cake. I also love cake.
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| sweet moves weekend |
[02 Mar 2009|05:16pm] |
i had a pretty sweet moves weekend. on sat, nya and i went to nick short's house w/ luke to see mulholland drive, i had 1 beer and i was pretty buzzed, that was fucked up because 1 beer is... not really a lot to drink. i haven't had a drink since our san francisco vacation over winter break, so it's been awhile. Mulholland drive is ok. everyone else really liked it but it was FREAKY AS SHIT! i was so tense the entire time i thought i might have gotten rhabdo and they'd have to take me to the hospital and give me some calcium gluconate (hyperbole, haha).
On sunday morning dane came, and we had a great weekend! the downside is we spent a lot of money cause we went out to eat at Chuy's and then i had to get gas, so i am feeling a little guilty. that, and i also didn't study at all. but overall, for a 12 hours visit, it was pretty good! i'd do it again.
Today i went to the VA for the first time. that place is huge! gigantic! my new team is pretty good. i like the residents, my attending seems extremely in touch with his feelings, always stooping down putting his face next to the patient's. i ate chocolate cake for lunch, it was pretty good but sort of bitter, i'm not a big dark chocolate fan, i like rich and sweet. Now i've got to study because I didnt' at all this weekend.
sorry about this rambling style.... i think i accidentally picked it up because i was just reading Andrew Candelaresi's blog.
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| stuff about my life |
[28 Feb 2009|04:16pm] |
medicine rotation so far:
1. ben taub - this was fun.
2. st lukes - this was even more fun. better food, more independence, unfortunately longer hours.
3. the VA - i'm nervous for MONDAY
other things:
life is pretty good on other fronts. trends indicate that i am not currently depressed. i rarely am depressed anyway.
things i like right now:
being a fucking lard ass, procrastination.
sharla once asked me if i ever run with my glasses on... well i hate doing it, but i think i might today. my contacts are in one of those 8 h solutions. lame.
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[16 Feb 2009|02:31pm] |
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h o o r a y
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| 25 things survey |
[30 Jan 2009|02:43pm] |
1. I have to watch movies in 20 min segments because otherwise I lose focus and fall asleep. Unless they're cartoons... I love cartoons.
2. I have a very ambivalent relationship with food and weight.
3. I am a very morning person. If I had my way, I'd sleep from 8pm-5am daily, and take my meals at 5am, 10am, and 3:30pm. Actually if I had my way, humans wouldn't need to sleep. It's just so boring.
4. Blood is thicker than water.
5. I think I have every disease, but everyone else thinks I have OCD. I guess OCD could be included under the "every disease" umbrella.
6. When I'm old and married, we're going to measure and cook with chem glassware and stir bars and clean our house with CaviWipes, and Sharla and her husband are going to live in the other wing of our Elizabethan style house. The connecting wing is going to be the living room, where we eat butter and ham sandwiches and watch Parental Control on MTV. The courtyard is going to be filled with climbing trees for Sharla, and we'll have adult sized swings.
7. I've been to almost every country in Europe, North Africa, and Southeast Asia, half of North America, part of South Asia, and I've been to Australia. Traveling is fun. My horizons are pretty sufficiently broad.
8. I'm really worried about the future.
9. I believe everything that my father tells me... but he's unfortunately very pessimistic.
10. One day when I can afford it, I'll buy myself a professional massage. The problem is that my dorm once hired professional masseuses to come give each person a 15 massage if you signed up, but they didn't wear gloves and I was really grossed out, and i brought my own towel, but I could feel their palmar dead skin cells sloughing off into the oil and onto my back, and I was just getting more and more stressed by the second, and afterward I must have showered at least 3 times but I could still smell the scent of that oil/dead skin from the masseuse's palms, and any relaxing effects of the massage were completely mitigated.
11. I laugh at inappropriate times.
12. When I see bad doctors, I get pissed. Doctors should really know better than to just write off their patients, or put themselves in the patients' shoes. Being sick is awful. Doctors should continually be sympathetic to that.
13. When I see bad patients, I get frustrated. Sometimes I feel like they are just getting what is coming. For example, when you see enough people with alcoholic cirrhosis who continue to binge drink upon discharge, and they come back and die, you feel a pang of sadness for their condition, but mostly you feel like it was a huge waste of the time and effort that their parents and society combined took to raise a kid into a productive member of society, who threw it away selfishly for "a good time" which probably wasn't even that good anyway.
14. I micromanage really bad. Sometimes I want to stop, but then I feel like if I stopped, then everything would go down the shitter.
15. I need to be more aggressive with lowering my cholesterol. Shit, I'm gonna be 24 in 6 months. I'm getting old! But I am really afraid of statins and other drugs... not that I wouldn't prescribe them to a patient. But what if I get rhabdomyolysis?!?! So that means oatmeal and cheerios. But I really don't want to preclude butter, candy, or whole milk. Maybe I could just eat less in general.
16. Paper towel use grates on me. Why not regular towels??? Those little hand towels or kitchen towels barely take up any room in the laundry. Or why don't you use a plate instead of eating your cookie on a paper towel? Also, wasting tissues is bad. Also, please recycle.
17. I get cavities all the time, but I brush religiously and floss EVERY night. What is the deal?
18. My self esteem relies on external validation (compliments, grades, etc). I engage in attention-seeking behaviors.
19. I am the ultimate loyal to my friends and family.
20. I don't like driving, and I fear 1) being killed or 2) someone I know being killed in a car wreck.
21. I like babies and animals, but not responsibility.
22. I am not a procrastinator unless it involves a lot of reading. I really do not like reading.
23. Making other people feel awkward brings me pleasure.
24. I am excruciatingly impatient.
25. I like to drink hot water and sleep with my shirt tucked in at night, in as many clothes as possible.
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[18 Jan 2009|07:41am] |
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i would love to bitch about the long hours, but i feel guilty because the residents have even longer hours.
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[13 Dec 2008|06:37pm] |
i sent out xmas cookies to some of my friends and their families today. when i was at the post office i was debating between using a flat rate priority mail envelope (cheaper, faster) or a box (slower, more expensive). you might think that the choice is intuitively obvious... well i thought it was intuitively obvious, until after i dropped them in the mailbox.
right as i was leaving, a guy walked up with a GIGANTIC heavy looking box and threw it in, and i realized that since my cookies were in cardboard envelopes, they were, with 95+/-5% certainty, squished. =(
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[12 Dec 2008|05:05am] |
so i have this heating pad and i used to swear it sucked REALLY BAD. I was like, this delivers no heat, in order to even feel it i have to basically lie on top of it, which i don't like, i'd rather have one that drapes over me, well this morning, i finally looked at the switch, which looks like this:
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i know the formatting of this ASCII picture is going to get all fucked up in everyone's LJ. you get the point.
Dude, the whole switch is in white, all the letters are in white, everything literally just blends in, all the buttons are the same color (ok maybe they are not, maybe they go black, yellow, red, black in that order)
but apparently for the last several YEARS while i have been bitching about this heating pad and coveting a new one, i have been putting mine on "Low" rather than "high", or even "medium"!. in my defense, i think ti's completely unintuitive to put low the farthest away from off.
im nervous about genetics this morning. i have heard it's difficult and i haven't studied the mostest for it :(... even though i did have the mostest time. i was too busy being torn up and now this test is totally going to tear me up.
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[03 Dec 2008|05:12am] |
so forget all the regrets that keep haunting you
they aren't worth your time
the days stretch out for miles and miles
leave them all behind.
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[28 Nov 2008|04:37am] |
will someone please call the surgeon
who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart
just say how to make it right cause i swear ill do my best to comply.
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